Twist of fate

So, apparently, when you yell "Crap" in the middle of an audition, you don't get a part. Who knew??? So, as I stated on my audition form that I wouldn't accept a chorus role, I received an email earlier this week stating that I didn't get a solo, thanks for auditioning, etc. Funny thing...I happened to be on the phone with a friend of mine as I opened the email and told her the news. She mentioned that another theater had just had auditions for a show, but didn't have any women audition. Interesting...so I emailed the director and asked if he was still looking for someone. He had me come in the next day to read. And I got the part.

Moral of the story? I have no idea. But what an interesting fate of events, don't you think?

I'll be playing the role of Margot in "Dial M for Murder". I didn't know anything about the show before I read for it, except for what I found online about the movie. I am the only female in the cast. My husband in the show (played by an actor who has previously played my husband on stage!) hires someone to kill me, when things go horribly wrong, and my character ends up killing the would-be murderer. You'll have to rent the movie or come see the show to find out the rest. I guess I need to start working on my screams...and a British accent.

"I'm beginning to be able to play ingénues"

There's this great movie called "Illuminata" about a theatre repertory company at the turn of the 20th Century. Susan Sarandon plays this self-absorbed actress, and while looking at a much younger, female thespian, she says, "Someday I shall look like that. I'm beginning to be able to play ingénues." The joke is that her character is obviously above 40. I've always loved that line!

Tonight, I say it in jest. Because while at my audition tonight, I realized I was the THIRD OLDEST woman in the room. I have been doing theatre longer than many of the girls in that room have been alive. I couldn't believe how old I felt. It also didn't help that after sitting in uncomfortable chairs for over an hour, we had to get up and do some movement...and my back hurt! I am old! No matter what Dennis says in Monty Python and the Holy Grail ("I'm 37, I'm not old!")

So, while I've taken small breaks from performing over the years, my competition has gotten younger and younger. It only makes it worse when they're all so damn talented!

How did my audition go? Well, if yelling the word "Crap" three measures into my vocal audition and asking the pianist to start again because I started to sing the wrong words is considered a success, then I was FULL of success! Not to mention the fact that I was literally shaking from top to bottom with nervousness (I've been doing theatre for 23 years, but vocal auditions ALWAYS make me extremely nervous.) It's moments like these that I'm just glad I've worked with the directors before and they know that I actually do know how to sing and memorize words.

Now the wait begins. That's the worst part. I keep my cell phone with me at all times and my heart starts to race every time it rings. No matter how long I've been doing this, that anticipation of "did I make it or not" never goes away either. We'll see...

My 'not-so-little' little girl

Tomorrow is Maya's 6th birthday. Where has the time gone? I know where it's gone...to my achy joints and gray hairs! But seriously, this child is so wise and mature beyond her years it's scary. Most days I feel like I'm talking to a teenager and not a kindergartner.

Last night we took her to Build-a-bear to let her pick one out for her birthday. She, of course, chose the iCarly bear (how many 5/6 year olds are watching this tween show???) I let her pick out an outfit and an accessory. She chose a wig. Can I just say how creepy it is to see this purple glittery teddy bear wearing a brown wig? But she has a new best friend, so whatever makes her happy, right?

On a totally different topic, I've gone against something I declared a few months ago, and I'm auditioning for a show this Sunday. I really want to get back onstage. Again, I won't be terribly upset if I don't make it, but I think it would be a lot of fun. Now, if only I can choose an audition song...